A whole new world

My mind is constantly running on how to be a good mother and how to evolve into a better mother. I am obsessed with this--in theory! haha When I get home I usually just need some time alone before I jump start mommy mode. But anyway...One day I was praying on this and I heard, "The best thing you can do for Jeremiah is to create the world that you want him to grow up in" What type of environment am I creating? I mostly remember my mom, but my dad was there too. They bowled in a league. It was always fun to go...frustrating that they wouldnt let me bowl--not even once!!! They took us to the drive-in. All I remember is Groundhog's Day...what I thought was THE most boring movie EVER!!! I remember out of town trips--family reunions and lots of ALONE TIME. I loved playing by myself...noone had quite the imagination that I had anyway--IMO! I was a little arrogant something! But that got me to thinking what qualities of my childhood would I like to offer to my child, and what ones that were a bit lacking that I would like to create just for him. And my little inner Keelah! Well I would love for him to see me and his dad, having real love for each other. Together or not...I want him to see respect, healty communication, and unconditional love. I want him to see us both committed to working together to help shape his life. That is very important to me. I believe this one is possible, because we both want that more than anything. I want to have activities that we do as a family. I want to take him to the science center, the zoo, museums, concerts, and the circus. Things like that...at least once a month. I want for him to have a lot of different experiences in his life. I will NOT be a lazy parent! I want him to be a thinker--able to draw conclusions and always connected to his heart! I want him to take some type of class maybe karate or some team sport. I think those things help to shape peoples minds as well as conditions the body. Which brings me to ...I want him to be active. I want him to be a moving child and one who respects his temple. I also want him to love and respect style. I want him to respect beautiful things. Read: I dont want him breaking my new shit!!! I want for him to have his own space! I love for everything to have its own place....hmm hence my strange love for containers of all sorts. Baskets, tupperware, decorative boxes, and the idea of labels--makes me purr!--wow the more I realize about myself--the bigger the weird factor! haha But ultimately, my son is in the world that I am creating right now. Yes this confusing, world that WILL yield to order and beauty and serenity and peace. I am so excited!!! This is going to be GOOD!

Damn I sure use "I" a lot!! I hope I remember that this is all about HIM!! LOL