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Did yall hear about that girl that used to be so damned nervous about everything? She was SOOO self conscious and paranoid...of damn near everythin in life? Did yall hear about her? She was cute (If I MUST say so myself!) She was smart, funny, creative...and so much more...but somehowm she was only able to focus on fabricated shortcomings. She worried if she was good enough, if she would ever have enough...was she, at her essence...enough? She questioned her worth as a woman, a lover, a parent, and as a human being...even though all evidence says she had a heart of gold. And she possessed everything she needed to make it! She looked down on herself a lot even though people around her tend to look up to her. She could not understand how there could possibly be such a big difference between what she believed to be true-in her mind...and what actually was. She suspected that there was a whole other world on the outside of the walls she erected around herself, but she just couldnt seem to get there and stay there. Then she decided to ...Let go. She decided to stop trying to strive for this "look" of perfection. She decided to stop being ashamed for the way that she is. She decided to embrace the way she is wired...and not feel bad at all when it is not like everyone else. She decided not to be focused on being right or justified...and just be herself. She decided to create a life that worked for HER. And that celebrated her! She decided to bask in the glory of womanhood and to go with the flow of parenthood. She decided that she would tackle the things that she deemed important...and pass on the things that didnt tickle her fancy. She decided to stOP 'thinking' so much about living and actually LIVE her LIFE! She would embrace and learn from her situatioins...and keep on going! She will not be held back...by ANY one or ANY THING! She is okay with herself. She is okay...PERIOD! Living in this way...is liberating and she is FREE! She has dropped the bags that she has carried around for so long...they cramp her style, hurt her baCK...and they just dont GO with the fabulousness of her new THREADS! Its a new damn day yall! And I'm SO GLAD IN IT! What comes next??? Lets see...