My LAST DAY!!!

Today is my last day at work until the NEW YEAR!!! I am so excited! I am going to get to play SAHM! I cant wait! My son is so fun to be with...and now I'm not gonna be all tired from working all day to play with him. I'm not going to get paid...and that SUCKS! But...I am still very excited. I just have to budget well...especially with the holidays coming around. I'm so glad my children are too little to care about what they get or dont get for Christmas!! I know this wont last very long. So I'm fully going to take advantage of it now! We are decorating for our children the first time this year...so that will be exciting as well. I feel so grateful for this opportunity. I had hoped that I would get the chance to rest before our second child came and re-flipped the script on us. And I will. My man finally came back and just in time...my ankles dont appreciate me bearing all my weight on them anymore! Yay! Happy Thursday! :)

So..I'm more GHETTO than I knew!

I was blog-browsing today and came across a young ladies blog who had a list of common words that 'some people' read: ghetto, use that are pet peeves for her. And the first one on the list was hurted. Now mind you...when I saw that, my face scrunched up in a peculiar way..."What is wrong with that?", I wondered. Hurted is a word. Now I agreed with her on ChicaRgo...and ax instead of ask...but for the life of me I honestly believed that hurted was an acceptable word. I have used it for TWENTY EIGHT YEARS!!! If I smash my hand..."OUCH! THAT HURTED!" Or if describing some unspeakable pain in the past tense...I would be quick to say how much it hurted at the time. So tell me...how is it that I have come this far...without ANYONE ever pulling me to the side and letting me know that the past tense of hurt IS HURT??? I called my mom...EVEN SHE KNEW! So I cant even blame this one on her. I mean I had to check several online dictionaries, before my mind would even begin to accept that I could have been walking around, just WRONG for all these years. I did find it in one though, the URBAN DICTIONARY!!! Hahaha so while I am aware that I have a few ghetto tendencies...I had no idea that it was so deeply ingrained beyond my conscious awareness. I mean I know that when I 'occasionally' take a gallon of milk to the head...that I'm ghetto. But this one straight blindsided me! Like for real...I was in shock, then denial, then anger, then guilt...now acceptance. What the hayle??? That one hurted! (SEE that made so much sense to me) Digressing...That one Hurt. Know better...do better! Right? :D

I hate people again...

I guess I should not have been SO excited over going on maternity leave...cuz ever since I have allowed myself to celebrate...PEOPLE have been getting on my last dayum NERVE! I cant take it. Well actually, I guess I can...and I will...cuz I only got ONE MO DAY!!! (after today) I cant wait to wake up to my internal clock, as opposed to my alarm (not that that wakes me up much anymore). I cant wait to meet my son in person. I cant wait to start working out! I cant wait to have a medium well steak from Outback. I cant wait to drink Kool-Aid with sugar in it!!! I cant wait! Sigh.

So it shall be written...So it shall be DONE

I have had many goals that have slidden by the wayside because they only existed in my mind. {yep...in this world, slidden is a word!} I have read plenty of times that in order to make something happen, the first thing to do...is to get it written down. I write a lot of things down...but some of the most important things or things that make me feel MOST vulnerable or afraid, just.dont.make.it! I guess part of me knows that seeing plans on paper does hold a power of accountabiltity with it...And accountabilty is a word that repulses (read: scares) me in the worst way. But this is the deal. Life is about to change for me in more ways than one. Second child aside, I have a home business idea, that is a GREAT OPPORTUNITY!

The reasons being
1) I can do it...I do already. Even while I read blogs all day long.
2) There is a market for it...and its not beign tapped into in my area currently.
3) Its reasonably affordable for me to get started.
4) I have been in the industry for years now, so I know how to sell it and who to sell it to.
5) The income has the potential to be great! Future expansion is IMMINENT!
6) It can very well become my primary source of income , after a while of it being my supplemental income that helps me to reach my other financial goals.

Now the only thing stopping me is my FEAR...of success or possible failure...not sure which is dominant right now. They feel exactly the same...paralyzing! However there is something else accompanying it this time. The knowledge and real belief that I CAN DO THIS! Every day, I find myself researching what I need to know to make sure that when I do put myself out here, that I can feel as confident that I know what I need to know to make this work, and I am who I need to be to see it through. Please wish me luck. Its not so much about the money, or the benefits, its much more about the risk. Because I am SCARED AS HAYLE! And I'm going to do it anyway.



Homework for tonight: Write up my official BUSINESS PLAN!

Why every time I take a STAND...

I wind up feeling bad about it. I have a "friend" that has been making comments throuought my pregnancy...that were just not right. I have written about a few...first she admitted having some 'feelings' about me being pregnant...and then various little things ever so often...that I tried to justify away. Why? I dont know. I cant imagine that anyone would say mean things on purpose...or without having a really good reason. Yeah...sounds like bull shit to me too. However the last thing that this "friend" has done was so uncalled for...and even tho I want to pretend it didnt happen...it did. I got up to tell her and the other lady that works here that I was going to the bathroom...and she growled, "Quit whining!". Now I gotta pee...so I kept going...but when I came back...I let her konw that my complaining would be done approximately the first of the year! Now my whole thing was...she assumed that I was going to be complaining first of all...and second that she had the AUDACITY to say that! Out loud! The other lady, we'll call her Mary...cuz thats her name (lol) said...Quit complaining?? Youre not pregnant!! But the killing part was...I wasnt complaining! I was trying to look out for you. Needless to say...I am not feeling her anymore. I dont really want to talk, or be friendly because you are not FOR ME...and I know that now. Mind you, she apologized...but still. Now she has been trying to be friendly...but I just cant. I have had to overlook too many things with her...and I'm just tired of trying to justify other peoples actions. I need to recognize...that there is not always some understandable reason behind someones actions...and if there is...its not MY job to find it. I cant go around getting my feelings hurt, just because you have something to get off your chest.

I've been tagged...7 things about ME huh??

The rules of the game are:

A). Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog...

B). Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself...

C). Tag 7 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs...

D). Let each person know that they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.



Well its not usually hard for me to talk about me...cuz I fascinates the hayle outta me...however I'm afraid that you may be disappointed...but here we go anyway! :)

1) My favorite subject is anything associated with MIND-BODY connection! I really feel like you can heal ANYTHING if you can heal it in your mind first.

2) Whenever I have any ailment, I check my books on reflexology or What you feel you can heal to see if there are any affirmations I can do or any pressure points I can press to help.

3) I dream of going on a spritual retreat, where we do yoga, eat vegan and sing Kum-bay-ah while holding hands in the woods.

4) Sometimes when I leave my house for errands, I pretend the paparazzi are watching my every move! Could be?? right?? :)

5) I feel like I would be a sell out if I straightened my hair. I have been natural for about 6 years...and havent straightened it yet! Even tho I am dying to see how long it REALLY is.

6) I went to massage school, but got freaked out...when I realized how INTIMATE it was.

7) I practice having OOBE's. I used to do it on a regular...but not so much anymore!

I tag...my blogroll--its not that many...but I love yall and read your stuff everyday! Even Unknown who doesnt post that often anymore!

The first day of November!!!

I am so excited!!! I have 14 days until maternity leave!!!! Party ova here! I cant wait...cuz my mind is GONE!! I forget everything...keep making mistakes that are just funny, but that tends to happen at this point in the game. My last day is going to be November 15th!!! Hopefully I dont deliver before then. Of course that is a chance...because baby is pretty much fully developed now. I'm hoping that I at least get a few days to just chill with my family and calmly transition from being a mommy of one to a mommy of two! This is going to be AWESOME!!! My man is back...and I am enjoying him immensely! Too bad bout the pelvic rest...he has definately earned a little action...but doctors orders!! OH well...time will come soon enough. I try to pray for patience...but my druggy ankles, and my expanding waist, says HURRY Up! I need to buy more maternity clothes...but I dont want to so close. I have, however been buying clothes for after delivery. Cuz I have slipped so far off the girly-girl radar-- Gotta get in MILF status, like RIGHT after delivery! No exceptions!! Well hope November is wonderful for everyone! I know its going to be GREAT for us! :) Well talk to you sooner than later! Wooooo-hooooo! I want to SCREAM! Life feels so good today! So thankful!