Jealousy

I am experiencing a feeling that can only be jealousy. Its not angry...and I dont want the person of whom I'm jealous to see an ill fate...but I am coveting. There was this girl that I went to high school with...and she was PERFECT! She always looked perfect, she was a sweetheart, she was very involved in every extra-curricular activity you can name, she was smart, captain of the cheerteam, dated the most popular guy in high school all four years, was a devout Christian...and yes a virgin. YOu could not hate this chick if you wanted to. She was homecoming queen for every year (for our class)...Yep...me no likey her! So I'm browsing myspace...and I run across her...and wouldnt you know it...her current life looks just as perfect. Had beautiful wedding, to man that you can see the love OOZING FROM. Just had first baby...looked FABULOUS throughout her ENTIRE pregnancy...yep she documenteed it all. Even when her belly was huge as a tank...she was cute...and leaving comments such as "Pregnancy is the greatest!!" and "Thank God for MIracles!" BLAH BLAH BLAH She has the life I think I want. And I hate to admit..but yep...Ya girl is thoroughly jealous. Did I mention that she lives in a beautiful home in a beautiful city...with beautiful lamps in the background?? Did I mention the plushness of the carpet? No I didnt...cuz that is a slight overexxageration...tho I'm sure it was plush. I'm sad. I have lots of things to be grateful for...but all I can keep thinking...is JEALOUS JEALOUS thoughts. Which of course just reiterate all the places where I think I fall short. sigh. I wanna go to sleep now!


{serious reinvention time is near--channelling Madonna}